Saturday, October 25, 2008

Amazing Day

Oh wow yesterday was amazing lol...i went to work it was a little boring but towards the end it was pizza at work...stayed to Carlos birthday recital that was really kewl...Carlos is an amazing guitarist...afterward ate a little afterward...and Avery, Dawn and I decided to walk and talk we ended up past Bowery went to Two Boots to eat..time flew next thing we knew it was after 12 we sang happy birthday to Avery the restaurant joined two guys asked if Avery wanted beer since he was 21 chatted with them as they were leaving just about the beer lol...and then next thing you know it was 2 am and we were still in the the restaurant we got into some amazing discussions...about church, and action, and was amazing encouraging and needed i feel all young people need to have these sort of things working for them...we came to the conclusion that we need to just do it and stop talking about it and we need to ask God to work in we left and ran into the two guys Chris and Wesley.....and got into great conversation...about faith, church, the Bible, upbringing, politics next thing you know its after 4 so we exchanged myspace and numbers and started to make our way to the train station...but yea last night or should i say early this morning was quite a day and God is so Awesome revealing the very thing that we were discussing and showing us how action works...amazing...

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Amazing Day

Today was definitely an amazing and encouraging day...and i have made the decision to be an Interdisciplinary Studies Major...SO now Youth Ministry and Music!!!!I'm so excited and little anxious at the same time...and today was encouraging because Nickeshia said something to me i never imagined anyone would say to me she said that my paper for Notley sounded like the beginning of a sermon...and that was just so encouraging because God's preparing me for Ministry is becoming evident in small ways and its just like in a nutshell this was my day...much encouragement God is So Awesome Everyday He is showing me this

Tuesday, October 21, 2008


Oh sweet rest after days and days and countless hours of writing papers although i enjoy thinking and writing papers I'm so glad i have a day to rest to really rest to be disconnected from work to recharge my batteries to maybe do some reflection or maybe just sleep who knows although my mind wanders a little to what will be done today because its so awkward to not do anything for once

Monday, October 20, 2008


So i finally just finished that paper due later on today although i just remembered i have to do the presentation piece i think im going to just attempt it before class although i need to read for the know i really have no idea...the peace i finally just received is in danger of being undone...ok sigh im gonna piece together the seminar piece right now...wish me luck i would like to get it done before 2:30

Friday, October 17, 2008

SOme Peace

God is so Faithful!!! I got both papers done for tomorrow's class, i just have another project due for Monday which i hope and pay to get done in good time and with the least amount of stress possible...I'm pretty tired...and the plan now is to stay up a little while and then take a little nap...oh wait wow i just looked at the clock and its after 9 i didn't i don't have to take a nap i can go straight to sleep soon...yay!!! so i worked and did my paper during work and then got it corrected and chatted with friends so that was mostly my day...

Papers papers papers still

SO i just got in not too long ago....i got frustrated a little this morning because i just wanted to continue on with my paper but time was flying by so that sucked...i got one of them done...and after school at around 10 Me,Manny,Dawn and Antonio got something to eat on Astor Place that was really kewl..i had the most amazing turkey burger it was so tender and juicy still till this morning i cant even say it was trying to work on my assignment but i don't think I'm going to finish it "tonight" I'm pretty tired but if i can get it flowing again that would help a that was pretty much my day...

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Papers papers papers

SO today was spent in front of the screen of my notebook writing a paper which i thought i had finished but turns out there were some additional things the assignment wanted me to talk about so its not finished and what sucks is that i will probably have only 4 hours to work on it because i have class tomorrow which is actually going to be in the library although my professor wont be in and its a training about using journals so perhaps i wont have to stay for the whole 3 hours but I'm not making any i was a little no a lot disappointed that i thought i was finished when in fact i am not and now i have to find a way to fit those other pieces into that paper on top of that i have to write another paper for that class which is going to be another struggle so i don't know I'm just hoping and praying that it will all work out on top of that i have another paper due on Monday these two papers i just spoke of are due on Saturday and Friday i work from 10-6 so I'm really praying that i get a big chunk of it done and that i can see a writing tutor about these that i wouldn't feel all like awkward about...because Dawn has a boat load of work on her plate and its not right that i burden her with my assignments because I'm her friend and i care about her yea that was mostly my day...I'm tired I'm exhausted...the past 3 weeks i have worked on over 10 papers...and i hope that perhaps next Saturday i can catch up on some good wonderful sleep to be refreshed for the next week Lord Willing..

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Birthday Yay!!!

SO yea today (yesterday the 14th) is my birthday and im 24! I feel no different from when i was a that im not as dumb as teenagers these thats not a completely random thing its actually scientifically true....anyways i spent the day doing homework and conversating with my great friends...i received some gifts but the greatest of them all was just genuine love...genuine friendship...and yea the mob of believers gathered together...School is going well lots and lots of papers though but i enjoy them although at times i feel like melting with the overwhelmingness....i havent written in a while on here...i havent prayed in a while...and i havent journaled...i want to but i dont know why i havent....could be busyness, tiredness and just having such a group of spiritual people around me but i hope to remedy those others things without losing what i have been blessed with...and uhhh i seriously intend to write more...i know empty sayings...but for real perhaps that will be the again the first thing i do when i get on my yea talk to you later....

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Tests Flame Gold

Lastnight was hard such a hard attack seems like it came out of nowhere...i dont know whats up with these episodes...but they are happening to often...luckily i had my amazing friends there with me online being encouragement...i read some Promises and that seemed to help...i have to start being more equipped if im more equipped i'll be less vulnerable in was ard i was supposed to have a Group Bible study with my friends but we had to reschedule so i was ok with that we are reading 1 Peter...i went to 125th street to get some school supplies only to discover that i only had $1.00 in the bank i was crushed but i prayed...i prayed and i refused to let doubt interfere...i went to Staples and picked up a couple of things and put them was alittle too i left Staples and walked to the 10 bus because i had a bus transfer...when i got to the bus stop or close to it rather the bus had already pulled off i thought i misses it that kinda sucked..i continued singing Worship songs...songs to remind me of how Awesome God set my focus on Him and not my circumstance...and i got home and told my mom about my day and she gave me some money and we went to Staples and i got my supplies...she came into some money today so that was great! as of right now i feel good about today but i feel kinda....i cant even describe...perhaps im get the title right? i hope ....1 Peter 1:7

Monday, August 25, 2008

Time, Time and Time Again

How you spend your time is very important because a lot of things require time, finances, friendships, fun, serious things, family, just to name a few. Its very important to stop the habit of relaxing and slacking off after a spiritual high. I'm guilty of doing this so many times but im so glad that the Holy Spirit keeps after me reminding me although i have to admit i am hardheaded at times ok maybe a have to learn balance i need to pray that i learn balance i need to learn how to include God in the things i do and not separate them. I believe what it is is although these things are important to me i don't feel they are important enough for me to go to God about unless i'm trying to put some truth or Gospel in it. (things = videos, video stuff) i have been up for the most part but today i was down not too much but enough for me to notice how i have been spending my time and how i need to re prioritize and not slack off after a spiritual high.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Sisters computer issues

so yea my sis is having comp issues hopefully these photos can help you solve the last part of the issue!!!

Food,Fun, and Sillyness

You know sometimes just sometimes i think that maybe I'm too silly and random at times to be a Youth Minister but then I'm reminded that i don't need to be boo yah enemy!!!God Holds me!!!

SO yea whew yesterday was amazing. I caught a Matinee in BK saw that ummm batman movie ummm..The Dark Knight. The craziest happened like half way into the movie the lights cut on and then when the credits started rolling the lights were on again it sucked....So yea who was i with i was with Avery,Dawn, and Greg as well as occasionally Althea. SO we pretty much hung from 1 til after 10.

After the movies we went to 42nd where we walked to the Pier..afterward we went to the park played some ball, swung on the swings and played on the set. And After that we walked to the chocolate stores, and visited Sam Ash, and Toysrus played kickball in the store hulla hooped...give or take some more events along the way yesterday was amazing full of food fun and community silliness.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Struggle & Strength

Listening to: Shout Unto God by Hillsong United Look to You

Struggle & Strength:
My greatest struggle seems to come from my home, no support for my aspirations and blatant disregard for my feelings. Its been hard dealing with this my whole life, what makes it even harder is that its one person who my whole life i have looked up to but its like all i feel is anger aimed at me. I've lived my whole life trying to please her and now that I'm finally taking this route which has taken a lot of evaluation and prayer and trusting in God, still daggers are coming. This isn't new at all this has been my desire for a number of years. In my strength when i try on my own i always fail. Every time i decide to give up and leave it in God's Hands He just gives me this amazing peace and i see Him working in my situation.

My prayer is that God would continue to lead me down a path that gives Him the Ultimate Glory that He would help me to live a life that is pleasing in His sight and that in my weakness He will make me strong with His Strength and work through me.

This big step is still scary.

Ordinary Me Continued

There were some things i forgot to mention in my blog and i felt it is appropriate to put them up here. So when you are trying something difficult, or hard its important to have an accountability partner, for support to be there alongside you praying with and for you. Well God has blessed me with two amazing women in my life this season for a reason. Dawn and Sharlene all i can say is Wow. Amazing women they were checking on me making sure my 5 day retreat, and reconnection with God was being followed, that i was making the most of the day and that i was on track. Talking with me about any struggles i had during the day, offering advice and just being there. So its important to have great amazing friends who you can grow with, share struggles with, count on, and pour into.

This morning i read Romans 6. Later on i will tell you how that worked in my day, how God helped me to apply it to my life.
Well right now i have to get ready for work its only 3 hours but an an amazing 3 hours.

Friday, August 8, 2008

Ordinary Me

God has done some extraordinary mind blowing things in my simple life. I just want to spill everything out but then i would be here all night typing so how about i just put in a nutshell for now as much as possible. The beginning of this week started with some struggle. I was upset because some friends i used to be very close to until you know people move on they are either in your life for a season or a lifetime. Well they were in my life for a wonderful couple of seasons they are mentioned in my last blog account. Oh yea i ramble by the way just a heads up and i jump subjects. SO anyway I was upset because something amazing happened in their life and i wasn't included in the loop i mean how could i if I'm not in their life, clearly but still i was hurt. So along with that i was dealing with pressure about the decision to go back to school and finally pursing what i feel God has set on my heart since i was younger. And dealing with bills and not being employed right now. It was just overwhelming, i hadn't been setting time for Quiet Time, Prayer, or even Bible Study. I was too busy youtubing and myspacing, little telltale signs were popping up giving me hints on my condition before it went bursting forth. Luckily my cousin Tirrell as online to hear me out and offer me some amazing Truth, i knew these truths you know God is Faithful and bigger than my issues but i just wanted to vent you know. Well the Spirit laid it upon my heart that i needed to do a reality check, a retreat away from the distractions getting back into whats important and that is my relationship with the Lord. I was getting too busy with those other things that i had my priorities all jacked up and God wanted to remind me about the importance of His time, my time and restoring balance in my life.

Those bills that i was worried about God put it to the side! God is an Awesome God! God is Bigger than my issues. If i ask Him, He will Provide!

This week has been amazing! God has restored me, He has given me renewed hope and He has replaced my worry with unspeakable joy. And He has showered me with His Love. He has been here right with me!

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